December 2009
Ah so it’s almost time for New Years and I’m excited like a little kiddie at Christmas. I think this New Years celebrations are going to be genuinely enjoyable and will only be spoiled by drinking too much or breaking oneself upon the Wii :P
I don’t expect much for 2010, nothing much at all. Hopefully the New Year will give me the motivation to get my arse into gear with work...
“This sickness I’ve got is a twisted, twisted thing.
I feel like I’m...”
– Laura
I’m really hungry and wanting a sausage sammich.
I hope I manage to go to Wilyum’s for new years.
Want a good start to the year for once :)
I hope tonight goes well.
I feel hideous.
Today’s been a bit of a dead mess.
I hate you, I hate you, I hate you.
I wish you were out of my life completely- just leave him alone.
Fuck off. To hell with you and all your friends.
We’ll all be alone in no time.
The 7 things I like about you! Your hair, your eyes, your old levi’s and when we kiss I’m hypnotized. You make me laugh, you make cry, but I guess that’s both I’ll have to buy. Your hand in mine when we’re intertwined- every thing’s alright. I wanna be with the one I know.
And the 7th thing I like the most that you do…
You make me love you…
Rage Against The Machine - Killing In The Name...
Living in a life of nightmares allows you to appreciate your dreams.
Another daily dose of depressing yet profound statements. I was close to losing it last night. Pills in one hand and wine in the other. The amount of pills I have could easily make up for the lack of wine. How much does it take? I don’t know. I sat, hands full, for what felt like hours.
And what stopped me?
Damn Nim,...
Almost there. Under 9 for Christmas. Why do I care so much? I want to be pretty. Pure. Beautiful. My crave for control has meant I’ve lost it all together.
I want to lose so much I disappear.
Gone.
For good.
“I don’t know why I started SI. It just seemed like the natural way to deal with...”
– I’m pretty sure that day was the best of my life.
I found a friend.
I feel like the worst person in the world.
I feel dirty.
I feel unclean.
And no one is telling me otherwise.
I feel like shit. All I want is a cuddle.
A phrase, “It’ll be alright.”
Will it?
You’re the only one I care about in this equation.
You may be completely speechless. But at least you’re eloquent.
I hate this.
I don’t even care about you really.
I’m not looking too forward to tomorrow. I’m forever so lonley, so cold, it’s just nice to be with someone. Lay next to something warm. Have someone that cares about me, even for those couple of hours. Have someone to hug me and hold me to make me feel small. Only one person has ever held me like that. It barely lasted longer than 5 seconds but I remember it. The first and last...
It would be way too dramatic of me to say that I hate my life. But that’s pretty much how I feel right now. Never sleeping when I should and getting ill all the time really isn’t the perfect combination for positivity. I haven’t tumbld in almost a day. What is wrong with me? I genuinely had nothing to say yesterday and I guess I don’t really now. Other than I have a very...
Do we tumbl when we write on here? Well, nevertheless, Wilyum has suggested I write about these topics; Cancer research. Trowels. Badgers. Year planners. Five songs you like to listen to in the bath. And so I shall :)
Firstly, Cancer research. I went into a Cancer Research charity shop today and tried on a lovely little dress that I was very, very close to buying but I didn’t because it...
I keep forgetting completely that we had awesome sex to this album. I suppose it’s you, we kinda had to :P
Good times my friend :)
I have such a mumblefumble of words and phrases in my head at the moment. I feel as if I may excrete something remotely profound if I keep peddling on. My head and my room is being filled by the best that classical music can provide and I feel all of a sudden strange. I need to expel some energy somehow. I want to run or dance or something.
Bah. Je suis faiiiil.
“…if you can’t kiss your friends then who can you kiss?”
– -Malorie Blackman (Noughts And Crosses)
This is totally mad but interesting. I’m not going to complain in the slightest. As long as we’re all clear on the rules of this game then I don’t mind.
